This whole thing could become fuck up while time passes and it gets dark. Had you felt disappointed? Disappointed about you, your life, something, or even someone? Going through life could be a wasted of time. But meeting the feeling of disappointment could become the worse feeling ever. Along with a broken heart, the disappointment feeling could chance the way you see things and they way life moves itself around. But, before all this happens… you have expectations.

A fantasy you make, expectation. Where all chances could be posible. Expectations go hand to hand with twisted dreams and day dreaming. Between expectations and the disappointment feelings life live on a spectrum (happy tears/hard feelings take place). An expectation makes yourself see no darkness nor loveless, but just the amount of self-esteem to need to reach the stars and beyond. However, a single disappointment could destroy everything and it would make you feel like it’s a ever-lasting nightmare under daylight. It would rip your heart out. Terror, horror, and a point of no return. You wanna run? Escape the melodrama, right. Pray wouldn’t make things bette. Real life will make you say, “I don’t care,” but the truth is that you, your super ego, cares but it may be too late for your ego takes part… All because you damaged your surroundings believing into something you made up to feel so happy.

The feeling of seeing everything falling apart is addictive. Expectations born everyday and disappointments are born just to kill them.


Time. You left without say why.

The time we met, we… I was going through a phase where I was not sure about myself. All I care was to run wild with everything I had. Everything I had was everything but nothing. Nothing was enough for me because that was all I had. The feeling of being complete with nothing was a double edge knife.

Now back to the time we met… to you. The most beautiful girl with stars in your eyes. Your shiny brought me life. My nothingness felt more than just enough. The time we met I remember all the details and every laughs we had. That time we walked through the park with the heat on ours backs. Then, the same day the rain and your stars glowing the whole park. I felt how your light shined me inside-out.

I wonder if you remember the time we met as still myself do. I guess the words you told me were simple noise because you don’t still around to repeat them.

The time we met I thought I would change. That time I changed to you because you needed. You yelled, “I need changes on my life.” And aware to all I had I changed you. That time when I realized changes matter to your stars I glowed too. But you wanted more…

“This time all I have is nothing” I said.

“This time is all you say. Nothing is all you have” you yelled.

“Your stars. I have your glowing. You’re my star tonight”

“My stars are free. I glow to everything and everyone who looks up” you said without fear.

That time I felt how I was coming back to reality with the ray of light of him.

Her name was Moon.


In the last moment of life, would you give your heart?

*Mother! is NOT a horror film*

Mother! came out weeks ago and I was not able to watch it. Yet, my expectations didn’t die by the waiting. This week I finally made it! After watch the film, Mother! got me debating with myself. About the deep message and the movie itself.

Mother! Oficial trailer

Jennifer Lawrence and Javier Bardem on set. Image via YouTube.

Mother! portrays the story of a poet (Javiel Bardem) who is struggling to find inspiration one more time to be able to write again. Together with his wife, Veronica (Jennifer Lawrence), are living in a just for two paradise. But, everything change when Veronica is not longer a inspiration to her poet. The paradise is not more perfect and Veronica starts to see her husband needs: a poet needs inspiration, but a witness that recognizes his work.

Bardem and Lawrence serve an actuation not mediocre but well too normal. At some points on the film I found myself asking me if that was really happening. Which is a good habit for thrillers and as far as the movie is that’s what Aronofsky wants. The Go-pro close-up style gives a easy way to connect with the public. However, Mother! is not a movie for everyone because the high rawness the movie presents (this wasn’t a problem for me but I saw around myself how young adults and middle adults covered their face). Mother! plays with psychology and a deep understanding for nature. While the poet plays more with a psychology, Veronica is more careful with nature.

Image via movietrailers.com

Mother! is directed and written by Darren Aronofsky who chose one more time to play with our psychology. However, this time was not successful as Black Swan did. The problem? The random scenes fully of rawness. Also, the poor and childish efforts the cast portrayed. Mother! is just the miss landing thriller of the year.



-Finding love in the wrong place-

Woodpeckers arrives as a powerful Caribbean freeze. This week Woodpeckers make it finally appearance into showtime in the United States. As far as the director José María Cabral believes, Woodpeckers is a huge contestant as foreign movie this year at the Oscars. The film portrays true events that happens in a Dominican Rep.’s prison.

Carpinteros official trailer.

Image via YouTube.

Do you had ever listen ‘We Found Love” by Rihanna featuring Calvin Harris? I guess you had. Well, the firm portrays the story of Julian (Jean Johnny), which is sent to prison after committed a crime, and his challenge to live another day in jail. However, the prisons isn’t a place you may want to go and specially if a prison from a poor country and highly overcrowded. In the challenge to survive Julian meets a fellow prisoner, Manaury (Ramon Emilio Candelario), knowing that Manaury has some power in the prison Julian do some favor in exchange of sending message to Manaury’s girlfriend Yanelly (Yudith Rodriguez) through “woodpecking” (a hand-sign language).

Jean Johnny and Yudith Rodriguez on set. Image via Listín Diario.

The film doesn’t have a huge production behind but is not needed because the cast delivers an amazing job. Woodpeckers have young actors doing their work with passion for what they love. Develop the kind of scene they serve throughout the whole film isn’t something that is well seen Dominican Rep. but their courage to present its just amazing.

Ramon Emilio Candelario (right) on set with Jean (left). Image via Dailymotion.com

Cabral as the director and writer could made Woodpeckers come together without lose the Dominican folklore.


Beatriz at Dinner

"Destroy life is easy, but maintain it…"

The film Beatriz at Dinner is a magic trip. What the director Miguel Arteta makes is a one way trip into place where you realize life itself. Arteta previous works are not as ambitious as Beatriz at Dinner is. Starting from what is serve for dinner you will end very satisfied.

Beatriz at Dinner – Official Trailer

Beatriz is a lonely woman that loves life not matter what form. Beatriz is a message therapist based on Los Angeles. She loves her work and loves to heal people.
Beatriz works in a hospital but also has clients outside her office. This time, Beatriz goes to the house of a deal client. The client is hosting a dinner party where Beatriz will take part. However, a guest is all the opposite of what Beatriz is and believes. The dinner will make Beatriz’s feelings go wild.

Image via YouTube.

The movie is a plane and simple meal. However, the work delivered from the cast is as hilarious as breathe-taking. Salma Hayer plays the main character Beatriz. Biggest moment in the film: Salma Hayer can sing! John Lithgow is the “bad” guy. The trans-parents Jay Duplass and Amy Landecker are working together. Also, two actors part of American Horror Story, Connie Britton and Chloë Sevigny. Part of the cast already had work before, and the chemistry is a proving fact.

The dark humor in the film is deliciously serve for all. Duplass and Landecker coming from a comedy (Transparent) that touch all types of comedy make all the ingredients cook to the point where you can enjoy it even do it’s dark comedy and a little soul-taste.

Image via IMDb.

Hayer’s character fits her well, however, I want to see her taking risks.


Wind River – review

“Snow and Silence”

Let’s be honest the director Taylor Sheridan knows how make a savage but full of true feeling films. This time he did again! Coming from two big and powerful hits, Sicario (2015) and Hell or Hight Water (2016), where both films where claimed at the Oscar… Sheridan knows how to play right within chance to loose.

Watch Wind River – Official trailer

Wind River is an ambitious breath taking. A eighteen-year old girl is found frozen in Wyoming’s Wind River reservation by the wildlife agent Cory Lambert. Lambert ask for help to solve this scene which looks like a murder crime. Jane Banner an FBI agent is sent for help. But, the low temperatures make Banner’s work looks basic. Lambert and Banner team up to “track” the scene.
In a small cold town where everybody know everything and everything is far, old ghost are hunting feelings of the present.

Image via The Weinstein Company.

Wind River has a super duo. The main characters are portrayed by Jeremy Renner and Elizabeth Olsen. Renner’s work is just brilliant. He delivers a cold but joyful interpretation. Also, Olsen plays a friendly work. See these two out of their characters of superheroes (Avengers) is a lemonade in summertime. They bring the chemistry they already have made on Avengers. Well play by Sheridan.

Olsen and Renner on set of Wind River. Image via The Weinstein Company.

Sheridan knows how create horror scenes into an amazing landscape of possibilities. The recreation of the murder scene is a landscape where you could get lost. The twist. The twist Sheridan makes is something we should consider as a great work. Also, how the director portrays the actual situation of Native Americans.


What Did the Doctor say?

Based on a real event

It was a cloudy fall day and everyone was getting ready for Halloween.
I was sleeping when my mother entered my room, turning on the light. I felt the bright light shinning on my face, but it was not enough to wake me up. She opened the curtains, letting in the sunlight. “Gabriel, wake up! Your cousin is sick again. We have to go to the hospital.” That was the only thing she said before leaving my room.
When I finally woke up, she stopped what was becoming an anthem. I looked at my phone it was only 9:17 AM. I knew I would have a long day ahead with my mother. So I decided to relax and take a hot shower.
Before making my way to the bathroom, I looked at my phone again: 9:34 AM, and it was a hundred percent charged. I took my phone, my towel, and my toothbrush, and I started to walk toward the bathroom. On my way there, I realized that my mother was still taking a shower. I returned to my room and lay down on my bed, waiting for her to finish.

“Gabriel! Are you still sleeping?” she yelled.
“Naa. I am awake.” I replied.

It took me half an hour to get ready. We took the first taxi that was passing by. The driver was a Dominican guy. He was one of those guys that can tell you their entire life story and what is happening on the news in just a ride. My mother enjoyed all that talk. They were talking and I was listening to music through my headphones. I paused the music to ask my mother what was going to be my birthday gift. I was about to turn nineteen in a few more days.

“You have to wait five more days,” she said, “Stop asking.”

My cousin Lea suffers from lupus. She has to come to the hospital often because of her condition. Lea is married and has three children. Two of them are teenagers. Her children are always affected by these hospital visits.
Lea was in a hospital located on Broadway, in Uptown Manhattan. It took us about twenty minutes to get there. The New York Presbyterian Hospital had the typical smell of sickness and antiseptic alcohol. Lea was in a two bed room, the room number was two hundred and twenty seven, located on the third floor.

“Lets take the stairs.” my mother said. She does not like elevators. Once, she had a bad experience inside an elevator.
“Mom, this hospital is huge. We might get lost. Lets take the elevator. And you want to see Lea, right?” I said.
“Okay. Let’s take it.” She finally said, while glancing at me.

When we got to the room, Lea’s older child was there with his dad. “Lea, what happened?” my mother asked my cousin. “Are you okay?” As Lea started to tell us what happened, I took a deep look to her. She looked like she did not sleep in days; her skin was as white as the full moon in a summer night, and her mouth was as dry as the arid earth in a desert.

On the other bed in the room I noticed a middle-aged Asian woman. I could see her name on her hospital bracelet; her name was Kim. Next to her were an Asian man and a white woman. I guess he was her son and his girlfriend. I looked at Kim and I realized she did not look bad at all. She looked healthy.
Fifteen minutes later, a doctor came into the room to take a look at both his patients. The doctor was around twenty eight years old.
“Very young to be a doctor.” my mother said under her breath.
“Nowadays they are like this, Tia.” Steven, my cousin’s husband, said back.
“Can you all wait in the hall for a few minutes? Please!” The doctor said. We all left the room, including Kim’s son and his girlfriend. About seven minutes after the doctor entered, he called Kim’s son inside. The doctor called him Jim. Jim took his girlfriend inside too.
Ten minutes later, the doctor left the room number two hundred and twenty seven with a changed face. He looked sad. “He is crying. Right?” Steven said. I could not see his tears. When we got back inside the room, we saw Kim and Jim crying. Jim looked devastated crying like a baby without his mother.

“ What did the doctor say?” My mother asked my cousin.
“The doctor said that Kim has a high level of cancer,” Lea said under her breath, “He said that she only has five months left. Maybe less than that.”

We were all shocked when we heard the news. I looked at Kim. She was crying; nothing exaggerated because she was trying to calm down her son, who was devastated.
I started to think how a single word can destroy a person. How cancer can destroy a family. I started to cry too. Kim looked at me. “Is okay.” She said. I couldn’t handle it. I left the room because I didn’t want Jim to look at me. “I’m going take a walk.” I said to my mother.
“Gabriel, wait! Lea we should go. Is getting late and is cold outside. I’m coming tomorrow after work.” My mother said to Lea and me.
“Okay, then. Take care!” Lea said.

We took a taxi again because the temperature dropped and the wind was freezing. The taxi driver was a quiet guy this time. I thanked God because I wasn’t in a good mood to talk or listen to anybody, and I’m sure my mother felt the same. I thought about life and how hard it could be sometimes.
Then I said:
-“What?” my mother asked me.
-“I don’t want anything for my birthday.”